Tuesday, March 30, 2010

mirror mirror.

1.12am, 30th of March, 2010.
Listening to: Breaking Benjamin - What Lies Beneath.

Mirror Mirror.
She sits alone in the corner of a room painted white. White walls, white sheets, white floor. There are no windows to the outside world. This is the only world she knows now.

The walls are bare, save for a single plain-framed mirror by the door.

In her hands lies an old and tattered book. With her dainty pale white fingers, she traces the words printed on the creased, yellowing pages.

“Once upon a time,” she began to read, in a small and delicate voice. “There lived a lovely little Princess named Snow White.”

Sitting silently, she imagines to herself the face of this so-called princess. Lips red as a rose. Hair black as ebony. Skin white as snow.

Innocent and sweet, looking eagerly to the future.

Turning the page, she read, “Her vain and wicked Stepmother, the Queen, feared that someday, Snow White's beauty would surpass her own*-”

Suddenly, a high-pitched scream erupts from outside the room, a sound that would be unsettling for anyone else, but not this girl.

She simply closes the book and places it back gently on the shelf. Lying down on the flawlessly made bed, she closes her eyes.

Pretty princesses and wicked witches. The ideals of such things swirl around in her head.

Stories like these aren’t so different to the real world, if you think about it. It’s just that in reality, people aren’t always as they seem.

There was a time, though it seemed like centuries ago, that she had been afraid of the dark; terrified of what creatures laid in wait for her through the blackness.

“Don’t be afraid of things that don’t exist,” someone had once told her. “In our world, people are the real monsters.”

The screaming has died down, finally. There is nothing but silence now.

Not even the whistle of the wind or the chirping of crickets is present, but it’s not as if she can remember what those sound like anymore.

Then, footsteps.

Two of them, as it seems. Quick and precise, they proceed down the hallway, echoing as they go by.

They stay still for a little while and she strains her ears to listen. They’re standing at the door of the room next to hers. All she can hear is the sound of faint murmurs.

Then, the voices move closer. They're in front of her door now. Their conversation is low and hushed, but she can hear a few words at a time.

"Her.. as a child.."

"... Really?"

“.. suicide watch.”

Finally, she doesn't care anymore. She's heard enough to know that she doesn't want to listen any longer.

She rolls on her side and tucks her knees to her chin. Eventually, the two people outside leave, but not without uttering the last word she especially didn't want to hear.

"... Matricide."

After a while in silence, she sits up and walks over to the mirror next to the door. She peers into the glass, staring into her reflection. She stares into her soul, or what is left of it.

Her lips are no longer red as roses; they can only quiver into a faint pink frown.

Her hair is no more the sleek ebony black it once was; just dry, messy strands.

And her skin?

Though gaunt and paler than it had ever been, it is still as white as snow.

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Behind the Story

Just a story I thought would be interesting to write. Not one of my favourites, really. It’s a sad upbringing of an essentially innocent little girl. One who believed in fairy tales, with princesses and all. And when your world is as bleak as hers, why not imagine the impossible? With an abusive mother, there isn’t much else you can do to hide yourself. But one day, the wicked witch had drunken too much poison and attacked the poor princess. It happened so fast, the little girl didn’t know what to do. And before she knew it, her mother had fallen into a deep sleep. Without a Prince to give her a true love’s kiss, there would be no way to wake her up.

‘You, my queen, are fair,
‘Tis true.
But the young queen is
A thousand times fairer than you.’†

Children need love and affection. Violence is an issue that is happening a lot now, especially in homes. For kids, it’s not an easy thing to deal with. It’s not something they can understand. Whether they see it happening, or it’s happening to them, it traumatises them. And it inflicts more emotional pain than physical. Scars heal, but fear is something that you can’t wipe out. If you could stop it from being done, wouldn’t you? Blame can be pointed at anyone, but if you know you can do something about it, do it. Take a look in the mirror, see into yourself and do what you can make a child’s future a positive one.

* Snow White And The Seven Dwarfs (1937).
† Jacob and Wilhelm Grimm, Kinder- und Hausmärchen, (Children's and Household Tales -- Grimms' Fairy Tales), final edition (Berlin, 1857), no. 53. – Translated by D. L. Ashliman.